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[the Dude] Hola Maca... this conversation may take days... and my laptop has issues... but here goes....
[the Dude] I am a Sufferer, you see. i gladly suffer for anyone or thing that i feel deserves my love
[the Dude] Sometimes my life leads me down paths that i am forced to reject
[the Dude] when i reject them, i always rebuild my reality from the ground up
[the Dude] in doing this, i am rejected by Everything before i am welcomed back
[the Dude] this gets me fucked up, locked up, sent back to my fucking parents home, essentially celibate etc...
[the Dude] pharmacuetically regulated, etc
[the Dude] bleh
(21:58) [afrodites] hey dude
(21:58) [afrodites] i was out having a smoke ..
(21:58) [afrodites] i understand that
(21:58) [afrodites] more than you might believe
(21:59) [afrodites] if you are willing to share more with me
(21:59) [afrodites] i would be thankful
(21:59) [afrodites] what i would like to know
(21:59) [afrodites] well first
(21:59) [afrodites] i want to say that that was very well put
(21:59) [afrodites] bmy question is
(21:59) [afrodites] my*
(22:00) [afrodites] how does it fuck you up .. what is it you do in response that gets you introuble ?
(22:00) [afrodites] i'm serisou about understanding what you mean .. you basically defined how i function
[the Dude] i follow my intuition and heart
(22:00) [afrodites] then why would you need pharmecuticals ?????
[the Dude] i DONT
(22:01) [afrodites] ok, whew .. just makin sure you know that
(22:01) [afrodites] too bad you are so far away (22:01) [afrodites] i would love to sit and chat in person
[the Dude] i am staying at my parents and they want/force me to take it. so for now i do
* the Dude hugs you
(22:01) * afrodites hugs you back .. a real tight good honest hug
* the Dude wants to post this conversation on his blog
(22:02) [afrodites] will you tell me what happened this last time ? what was the "freak out" ?
[the Dude] a fucking nazi cunt male in Oaxaca, Mexico tried to attack me with a piece of wood
(22:03) [afrodites] and you fought back ?
[the Dude] name sounds like "DrahJah"
[the Dude] i dared him to do it and he relented
[the Dude] he is a cokehead fascist nazi devil
(22:04) [afrodites] so you fought back ? is that how you got arrested or sent back home ?
[the Dude] i fought back yes, but not through physical violence
(22:05) [afrodites] how ?
[the Dude] i gave that cunt every chance i could
[the Dude] i shunned him
[the Dude] every time i saw him, publicly and privately
[the Dude] I trained the guard dogs where i lived to despise him
(22:06) [afrodites] holy shit
[the Dude] i lit things on fire and prayed for his death
[the Dude] i told friends i wanted to eat his left eyeball
[the Dude] that i wanted him dead
(22:07) [afrodites] that prolly frightened people, huh ?
[the Dude] a la chingada
(22:07) [afrodites] a la chingada ?
(22:07) [afrodites] i so need to learn spanish
[the Dude] "put that in the black hole"
[the Dude] "to the black hole"
(22:07) [afrodites] instead i have been practicing poi.. tell me more!
[the Dude] whats poi (22:08) [afrodites] fire twirling! i havent played with the fire yet .. i have a ways to go .. but its chains with balls on the end that you light on fire and dance with while twirling
(22:08) [afrodites] one sec .. it is really beautiful
[the Dude] you do that on rollerskates and i will faint
(22:08) [afrodites] i feel i found something i truly enjoy to do .. i'll find a link with a video
(22:08) [afrodites] i will !!!! i want to
(22:09) [afrodites] one sec.
(22:09) [afrodites] http://www.thevenue.org/firespinning_videos.htm
